HAIZ.. now i feel i have a bleak future.. it seems so hopeless.. results sucks.. mood sucks.. school sucks.. everything is just down.. and i get sick easily nowadays. Always sick. Its horrible. I'm getting weaker and weaker.. especially before exams and stuff, i'll get some sickness somehow..i also have no idea whats going on inside me.

I don't know whats the purpose of life. After living for a few decades, i'm dead. After slogging so hard for life.. it all comes to naught. On top of it, i still have to suffer! Be it studies, money or family. In the end, i cant bring anything with me. So why in the first place, im here? SUch a sickening process.. in a materialised world, money is all people think about. im so disappointed. haiz.. what a world it has become.

Results results results.. all these will just drive me mad someday. All these words just keep whirling in my head.. on and on.. i dunno whats wrong with me.. did i chose the wrong path? Or should i carry on with the awful journey in jc. I dont think i can stand it any longer. Maybe next year or some fateful day, i'll be in the mental hospital. I wonder if i'll make it to j2. I really have no idea. From now, its a clear no. Now i begin to worry what i'll become in the future. Will i be able to make a living myself? or rather find a good job? School now just SUCKS! I hate this place!

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